Tuesday, November 27, 2007
srsly, i really find my dad VERY unreasonable.
just now, i was told by my dad to keep e basketball which i took out from my cupboard. so, i just went to take e bball, walk to e storeroom, n hook it inside. next thing went i came out he asked me where did i took it from last time, i answered:my room,second ans:the storeroom. then he said, the store is VERY MESSY. he WANTS me to put it INSIDE TO E FAR END OF THE SHELF. then i started to say, "ISNT IT THERE? HUNG NEATLY[erm, not sure whether it can be used here] ON THE HOOK?" that sentence meant that, the basketball, where it was hung, CANT BLOCK his PATHWAY. NOR. HIS WHAT-EVER-HELL.
my mum started coming over and said, " just listen to your dad, just follow what he wants" . at that point of time my tears already wana come out liao lor.
i really had enough.
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next minute which is now. another thing happened again. he SHOUTS at me "telling" me to tidy my table. saying that my table had been like that since i come back from beijing. which is very long ago.[ i admit tt im kinda wrong]so i just look at him when he scold me lor. THEN. he says tt time STARING AT HIM. what he want lah ? like he make me cry until like that him also will be different mah. im trying to lik look normally since my eye is filled with tears already. n he ACCUSES ME OF STARING. HE SAYS THAT HE BUAY SONG ME. what can i do ? im still his child ? what can i do? rebel ? huh ? REBEL?!? what u think i can do ? HUH?!?! u think i what arh ? ur chu qi tong isit ? im human . i HAVE FEELINGS. even when i CRY also must cry SILENTLY. WHAT IS THIS ?!?! HUH?!?! srsly. nobody knows what im feeling now, except myself. srsly. you people always like to think of yourself. saying that wadeva wadeva u do is so difficult, i must put myself at ur shoes n see how hard u work for us. you never think of others, or stand at my point of view. this is called SELFISH. see that ? tsk. another thing is that. you, YOURSELF, cant even MANAGE your OWN temper. even this kind of small things u also wana b so calculative. this is SO WHAT lah. tsk.
u people always like to abuse ur rights over us.
this is not what a good parent will do.
please, think, think of what is the consequences before screaming ur lungs at me.

let me say this ounce again.
arguing doesn't mean im rebellious.
im just trying to DEFEND MYSELF.

still, i feel that whatever i do, i have to be prepared, for fear that i might just get a scolding for it.

sad case huh ?

why cant they just give me some patience ?
im not asking for alot.
they aint too[?]
but sometimes, things are just getting a lil overboard that i cant take it anymore.

what if i die someday, will anyone grieve for me ?